Hot Water Bags (2010)
Hot Water Bags was performed at Plato’s Cave on April 9, 2010 as part of an exhibition and edition series organized by Eidia House. In this piece, I re-enact a scene from childhood where I would hide out in my closet playroom and masturbate with plastic baggies full of hot water. For this piece, I created a site-specific installation of my closet in the unique Plato’s Cave underground art space, incorporating children’s clothing, board games, Barbie dolls, stuffed animals and books. During the performance, I read from a book called Men In Love which I found in my parents’ bookshelf when I was about 10 years old, played with Barbies and other toys, while intermittently getting up and walking to the nearby water faucet to fill plastic baggies with warm water and use them to masturbate. While placing the warm baggies between my spread legs, I went through a series of emotions from pleasure to shame to horror and ultimately happiness, reflecting the contentious feelings a child has about their own sexual proclivities.